Mona’s Mona’s maritime diary: 7

25/10/2016, 17:26 hrs. Light cloud, 14 degrees Celsius, light South Easterly breeze
(4 miles per hour)

Gledam u rijeku, rumeno nebo nadamnom. Stojim na
nultom meridijanu; označenom noću jednim zelenim
snopom koji svijetli nad mračnom vodom. Moje misli
slobodno teku; dolaze na jeziku kojim se služim kada
poželim biti bliže… tebi. Iluzija, znam. Dok se moje
emocije razlamaju, sastavljaju, spajaju u prizmi sjecanja.
Moje su riječi lagani povjetarac, brod bez sidra, suton
na horizontu. Najjače oružje. Najsigurnija zaštita protiv
slobodnog pada. Zaborava. Besmisla u kojem se krećem
kada, snena, posmatram vodeno nebo. Moje su riječi
jutarnji pjev ptica u proljeće. Danas se više ne sjećam
kako je bilo prije. Protekle noći, sanjala sam stihove
‘Love is in the air – / melancholia of heart / dreams
falling softly’. Zatim 
sam te stihove pospremila. Negdje.
Nazirem tek njihov odraz. Odraz sjećanja koje pluta
na engleskoj vodi… polako nestaje.

I am contemplating the river; the crimson red sky is
above me. I am standing on the zero meridian; at night
the meridian is a green beam shining above the dark
waters. My thoughts are free-flowing; they are coming
to me in my language, the one I use when I want to feel
close to… you. It’s just an illusion, I know. My emotions
are refracted, restored, brought together in the prism
of my remembrance. My words are a light breeze, a ship
without anchor, a dawn on the horizon. My words are
my strongest weapon. The safest protection against a
free fall. Forgetting. Against loss of meaning that surrounds
me when I am looking at the liquid sky, sleepy. My words
are a morning bird song in Spring. Today, I don’t remember
anymore how it was before. Last night, in my dream I wrote
the verses “Love is in the air – / melancholia of heart /
dreams falling softly”. Then, I put them away. Somewhere.
I can only see their reflection. A reflection of memories
floating on the English water… disappearing slowly.

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